Make no mistake, the primary reason I started this site is for me. I hold no illusion people will come clamouring to visit in order to see what words of wisdom, or otherwise, I might post. Still, the effort exerted to start and maintain this means I place some degree of value in it. While the answer itself isn't entirely clear even to me, I have spent a fair amount of time thinking about it.
I suppose the reason, or at least some of it, is twofold.
First, I firmly believe everyone has a voice and the freedom to use it. One day while looking at my facebook feed it struck me I didn't always want to read thoughts or ideas of others at that particular moment. Maybe I just wanted to quickly check-in to see photos for instance. I'm certainly glad people express what they feel a need to, but I prefer to have more control over when or if I see it. My hope is if people want to explore a bit deeper with what is going on with me, they have the option to visit this site rather than me filling up their news feed.
Perhaps more importantly though is something that struck me at church recently. As happens from time to time, my mind wandered (or perhaps was inspired) during the sermon and I started thinking about accountability. Professionally I'm held accountable by performance standards and goals. Even when it comes to exercising I track miles run and food eaten all in hopes of improving the quality and quantity of life. In both those areas, I have tangible information in which to review and see how I am doing. But, how am I keeping track of ensuring I am living in such a way that is important to me? Trying to live that kind of meaningful existence everyday is great, but unless there is context around the effort, how do we know how we're really doing? Now, don't get me wrong. This is not some sort of scorecard or spiritual tally sheet. This is not a replacement for Grace. But if I share, reflect and evaluate here, it may just provide insight I might not otherwise have. Making it public just puts pressure on me to actually do it.
Or then again, maybe it's just a place to make fun of KU football. I can go either way.